First love rediscovered

First love. Many people regard teen love as the first love. To me, first love was discovered when I was 22years old. The kind of love that knows no boundaries. You see, when I was with her, the world became oblivious to me. We only see each other, only sensed each other, only cared about each other. But then I lost her. My world ripped to pieces. The sky turned dark on me.
I tried to rediscover love with other people. Constantly, I tried to rebuild the love that I lost with someone else, only to discover that I don't love that someone at all. . None at all.
Till at last, I gave up searching. All the while, still hoping for the return of my one true love. Years had passed now, my hope was flickering to it's end. Until recently, she found me. We rediscovered our love. And it was, as it was....my true love.

Things got complicated. I was not given a raise. That, totally changed my eye on this company. I don't love it anymore. I think I might leave it. My feet numbs, my heart aches, my eye feel sore. I'm leaving for sure....The question is, when?

Where do I go now? I had my life all planned out, but then fate pushed everything sideways. I've lost control, and now, I am lost. Which way do I go? When to go? How to get there? Where is "there"? I am lost....

I thought I can cut away all my problems like knife to butter. But my problems was tougher than leather, kevlar alike. It's still there, watching me, waiting for a chance to pounce and end everything, or worst, devouring me slowly from flesh to bone.

I discovered that my new job is much2 more demanding that I expected, but I'm not giving up yet. So many things to do ; So little time.

Life took a turn when I was appointed as Production Manager at my workplace. New responsibilities pretty much demands a lot of my time and energy, not to mention creating new enemies. I hope the pay is worth the struggle.

Opportunity crashed and burned. Life's become dreadful to watch. Work is harder than ever. Money is so scarce, I feel like robing a bank. Love is bullshit. Mood swing is frequent. The only cure is USD1000. Any loaners?

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Love. My worst days has past and happier times are emerging. I see love everywhere. The trees are smiling, the sky are grinning, i feel the wind rubbing my back, so comforting. This day is the best day of my life. I am at peace, atlast. LOVE conquers all!

One day after another, I see new chances, new paths to a better life. In search for a perfect life is ofcourse impossible les in a dream. I'd be happy to be just alive and well fed, well sheltered and most of all, loved by people that I care much.

Am I Dead?

Sad Man
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• I'm so worried.
  I'm afraid of my past.
  I'm afraid of my future.
  I'm afraid of my present state.
  Am I afraid to live?
  I am too scared to die.
  Can I go on living,
  while others had left me behind?
  
  I ponder,
  I yield,
  I should dissapear.
  
  I rest now,
  waiting for whatever that may come....
  

Extreme Confrontation

anger 6
Originally uploaded by Pim Warnars

MAD! I AM SO PISSED OFF!!! WHY AM I TREATED THIS WAY. HAVE'NT I SACRIFICED ENOUGH!!!

why me? ...I'm a still target to three stampeeding vicious animals. Them, I care for them. I protected them. I deny their sins and embrace their good deeds. I followed them, listened to them, Pitied them, Cried for them. But at last, I've become their prey.

AAAaaAAAARRRGGHHHHH!!!!

Insomnia - Self-portrait | Original By Ty The Terrible - Pixel PimpedZeon7

Insomnia - Self-portrait Original By Ty The Terrible - Pixel Pimped Zeon7
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I could'nt sleep tonight. It's 5.30am and I'm still awake...could'nt sleep. Why is my eyes heavy but I can't close my eyes? I've got to sleep or I might sleep forever when tomorrow comes rushing.

It was raining heavily today in KL. I was soaking wet when I finally reached my pad. Well, anyway today is not so bad aside from having to bare the freezing temperature of ALAMANDA shopping complex. OK OK! I work there, temporarily I hope.

FYI to get to Putrajaya from Central KL. First, you can either board a bus in front of MYDIN shopping complex near KOTARAYA, bus no.68 METROBUS. This bus go direct to ALAMANDA. OR, you can also board RAPID KL bus at the KL CENTRAL or near CENTRAL MARKET (which is not far from KOTARAYA). That bus will take you to the PUTRAJAYA CENTRAL bus station. From there, take any NADI PUTRA buses cause all of them pass near ALAMANDA. FRANKLY, I'd rather take the No.68 METROBUS. OH YEAH! the fare is RM3.50 for METROBUS, and RM3.00for RAPID KL. NADI PUTRA will charge you just 50 cents.

OK back to me... I'm reading a few books that teaches you how to open your own business at home. And I think I'll do it! They make it sound...well not so bad. I think I can manage with my free time and a small portion of my savings. I'll keep posting my progress so that you can bare witness. Anyway, quote for today is....

"MISKIN BUKAN ALASAN" @ "POVERTY IS NOT AN EXCUSE"

It means that just because you're poor, doesn't mean that you cant succeed. I think I've met a few people that came from poor family but managed to succeed in life. And I also knew a few people that just gave up in life because they thought that poverty are inheritances.

Think About It...

Today is like any other day. I'm working at Putrajaya today. I'm assigned temporarily to our branch in Alamanda. Couldn't say its exciting nor interestingly enough be around there for more than an hour. And they made me stay there almost the entire day. Well, till 9pm to be exact. How I wish I'm somewhere else, somebody else even better. Somebody rich, but not famous...I hate publicity. Maybe because I'm not Brad Pitt lookalike type of person. Wish I am though. Hm, nothing interesting to tell for today but a quote if must have.

"To be or not to be, that's the question"

I'd say this quote must be responsible for so many suicides...lol.

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